2013年2月5日星期二

这个新年不回家

1.

醒了,发现自己哭得厉害...
想着他们眼泪流个不停
5.29am, 以前在家每每这个时间也能听到一样的sembahyang声
大概是因为睡前想着贺年卡要写什么给他们
给不了什么, 心痛
最近总是梦到家里庆祝新年时客厅里通宵的白灯
想写一本他们的故事
可现在的人明白吗?
他们终究也是可怜人

快一年没回家了...
想告诉他们“女儿很爱你们”
一定要快乐健康,长命白岁
等我。

2011年9月11日星期日

nightmare

突然又做噩梦,这次又是在家跟她吵
很受不了,不敢回家
从来只有我很怕的才会以恶梦的形式出现在梦里
蛇,虫,考试,鬼-很少,某人去世了。。
这次。。
看来她是我的恶梦啊
一点回去的胆量和自信都没有...


10pm 11/9/2011 sunday

2011年6月14日星期二

haiz..
hate utar!!! retake 1 sub only also nid to pay RM1041?!!!! shit!!
i dun nid any resource thng, facility thng!!!
walao!! utar bus isn't free for student also, then gt wat excellent facility pula nid charge us so much???
to study this foundation, i wasted RM 15000 dy, n 2 years,
at the end i get nth!!!
so suffering..


but i cant change anythng,
this's my fate.
hv to face it,overcome it,
always remember it,
n remind myself
work hard to get n gain back all that loss.

no 1 has the responsibility to cheer up you.
nw can understand this truth very much.
stop decadent,
stand up n start to fight!!
绝望颓废并不能改变事实,
唯有努力
才能赚回失去的
才能创造未来!!!

6/15/2011 1.45pm



2011年4月29日星期五

30/4/2011

me: halo
Report · 11:36am
eh
helo
sorru
soryy*
lolx
how are ur?
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huh?
y sorry?
Report · 11:37am
no lah
bcau i juz see ur message lah
^^
haha
nice loh
can relax lah
Report · 11:38am
so when u go back hometown?
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tomorrow
haha
so excited
u?
Report · 11:38am
dun noe yet
where's ur degree?
Report · 11:39am
setapak ooh
u also right?
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no
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lolx
kampar?
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i'm nt going to study liao
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eh
y?
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just need time to decide wat to do
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lolx
y dun want study liao?
Report · 11:43am
coz i dun think i suitable to continue lo
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hmmm
cannot said like tat oh
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maybe change or wat de, but within half year, i'll nt go to study
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cannot lah
y?
bcau u not satisfied for u result?
Report · 11:46am
erm, half correct
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loolx
wad is the another half?
Report · 11:48am
i dun noe whether wat is the most suitable for me
maybe i choose the wrong course
Report · 11:48am
hmm
ya
me too
choose the course tat u like or interest the most
dun think for the salary or the "future" first
look forward
be open minded
like american style
tat y the US is so sucessful
^^
agree?
Report · 11:50am
agree >:o>:o
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lolx
u can de lah
so take sometime to thing of it first
the changed to tat course loh
u can continue study in utar ya......if u dun want study, u will waste one year on study foundation oh
Report · 11:54am
em, dun noe hw to say
>:o>:o
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haha
u are christian right?
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yup
y?
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haha
凡事靠主都能做oh~
so pray to the lord lo
as HIM to give u the intelligent to choose the course
^^
Report · 11:56am
:):)
wat is ur course?
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lolx
actuarial science
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woah
o.Oo.O
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lolx
nothing special lah
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i thought u will choose engineering that kind of course
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lolx
hmmm
i dun like oh
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like math?
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hm
before: yes!!!
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nw no
haha
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but now juz want to challenge math loh
haha
sound stupid
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no ar
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lolx
wad subject u like the most?
Report · 12:01pm
last time b4 foundation are math n kI
nw just love to learn bio, chemistry
but not exam
hehe
Report · 12:02pm
lolx
everyone dun like exam lah
hahaha
especially me
^^
Report · 12:03pm
but u can do it very well leh
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no lah
put more effort loh~
u can choose the bio or chemistry course ya
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but my bio result very lousy
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nvm ya
the result doesnt mean anything
lolx
i mean the working style and the experience is more important
Report · 12:08pm
hmm,
still need time to think about it
:P:P
Report · 12:08pm
ya
really need oh
+u lah
everytime face problem.....the first
thing is pray to the Lord
HE will listen to u de
^^
Report · 12:10pm
:):)
ur smile look nice
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haha
thanks ^^
paiseh paiseh
:P:P
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haha
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wad are u doing now?
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nth
i gt nth to do
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lollx
haha
yaloh
holiday liao
dun know do wad
Report · 12:13pm
u sem break only go back?
Report · 12:13pm
yup
my hometown is sarawak oh
so cant go back so often lah
Report · 12:14pm
i noe ar
sibu is wat kind of place?
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ehhh
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any special?
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dun know leh
ehh
got a lot of foood to eat loh
美食天堂
they said one
not me
hahaha
nothing special oh
Report · 12:16pm
ppl always say like that
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lolx
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look forward to go sarawak,sabah there
go to eat
haha
Report · 12:17pm
haha
u like food?
Report · 12:17pm
love to eat
:P:P
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lolx
haha
so enjoy oh
Report · 12:18pm
normal ppl love to eat mah
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lolx
yes lah yes llah
tat mean i am abnormal loh
lolx
no lah
juz kidding
i juz like eat junk food
XD
Report · 12:20pm
u should eat more oh
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lolx
i eat a lot lah
still so thin
then i give up loh
Report · 12:21pm
haha
i easily get fat
but still love to eat
haha
Report · 12:22pm
haha
no lah
i hope i can exchange with u
lolx
Report · 12:23pm
i hope so too
:P:P
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hahahha
since u so free now
u can do some research on the course oh
Report · 12:24pm
erm, dun wan
:P:P
Report · 12:25pm
lolx
lazy dao~~~
Report · 12:26pm
find room dy?
setapak there?
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noop
yup
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huh?
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but havent find oh
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then hw?
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i asked my church to find for me
tonight i will ask again loh
in case they forgot
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ic
but y dun u live with friends?
Report · 12:28pm
i dun like oh
too close already......then will be every annoying
haha
later keep asking me go to play with them
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like that also can oh..
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hahhaa
no good lah
nvm lah
the church will find the house with all christian inside
nice oh
before foundation i also ask them to find
then i every satisfied for this house
hahaha
Report · 12:30pm
that's great
:):)
when's ur flight tomorrow?
Report · 12:32pm
morning 8.50 de
haiz
so early
aiyo
need to wake up very early lah
Report · 12:32pm
wah, then be careful leh
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lolx
yaloh
i also scared leh
wahaha
Report · 12:34pm
erm, last time week 13
my housemates' laptop kena curi
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hmm
wah
really oh
ss17?
Report · 12:35pm
yup
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ehh
so dangerous oh there...
then got other thing kena curi??
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we dun noe when the thief came, n hw come in
my friend's money lol
so they thought maybe it's did by 1 of the housemates also
Report · 12:37pm
wah
oh
maybe loh
Report · 12:37pm
but dun noe who
so sometimes very confuse
dun noe who can be believe
Report · 12:38pm
lolx
the housemate all is utarian?
Report · 12:39pm
yup
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hmm
so scary de.....u didnt moved out?
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week 13 lol
this sem 1
this sem happened 1
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so at week 13 u moved out oh
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no ar
still here
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lolx
u still dare to live with them oh
scary leh
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outside ppl also dun noe who can be believe mah
Report · 12:43pm
haha
yaloh
u are right
so need to be careful loh
lock the door everyday
Report · 12:44pm
yalo, very sibuk
i dun like
:3:3
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hahaha
wad lah
for ur own good lah
==
Report · 12:45pm
i dun like that kind of feeling
friends cant be believe
then will be alone
Report · 12:46pm
haha
sometime need to be alone lah
Report · 12:48pm
right also, but i rather believe that's did by outside ppl
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haha
==
so lame oh
tat good too lah
otherwise will feel very unsafety in tat house
lolx
Report · 12:49pm
:):)
u gt msn?
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ya
but i seldom used leh
can said very rare to see me on hotmail
jamesloitk@hotmail.my
Report · 12:50pm
oh ya, ur surname in chinese is?
Report · 12:51pm
wahaha
dun kacao me oh
thunder thunder...
lolx
Report · 12:52pm
very special leh
whole name neh?
Report · 12:53pm
雷淂凱
haha
i can find the correct theme for my name by using google pinyim leh
no bad no bad
Report · 12:55pm
really very special
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lolx
dun know oh
ok lah
juz a name lah
wad is ur chinese name?
Report · 12:56pm
张立卉
look simple
:P:P
Report · 12:57pm
lolx
no ah
also special ya
how to pronoun the last word
haha
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hui
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oh
i ididnt see tat word before leh
haha
today learn a new word lah
^^
Report · 12:58pm
but many ppl gt same name with me
sometimes very annoying
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lolx
where got lah
u are the first ppl i know using this name lah
so its rare too
hahhaha
Report · 12:59pm
in words rare lah
but just our same intake,science only airdy gt three ppl with this name
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lolx
with the same words?
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no same
surname also not same lah
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haha
aiyo
then is not same lah
juz the pronunciation same lah
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but when ppl called then dun noe should reply o nt
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lolx
haha..
reply loh
if dun know who is it..then make a new friend alh
so good oh
wahaha
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lol :3:3
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hahhaa
wad expression is tat lah
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: 3
erm i think is 'za dao'
haha
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hahaha
ya
really za dao oh
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:):) anyway, may god bless ur future~
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aha
u too o
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+u
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same same lah
^^
+u+u
especially u lah
nvm
i will pray for u de
^^
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thx lah
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haha
welcome...
^^
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wanna off lol
bye bye
Report · 1:13pm
okok
bb
see u
^^
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take care ar
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u too oh
bb lah
^^
 
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